The ups and downs of mental illness fully submerge and threaten to drown any who stand too close. Written during months of periodic psychosis, the full power of any and all emotion are felt overwhelmingly and seemingly permanent: despair and emptiness before an attempted prescription overdose, fear and hysteria from a powerful hallucination, the crazy that we hide behind by saying it's just sadness instead of admitting you're being constricted by an invisible, impending doom that freezes your heart, squeezes your eyeballs, and turns your fingers blue.
It's the need to address the ugly side of mental illness. The parts that nobody wants to talk about...that nobody wants to hear...?

I hope
t̶h̶a̶t̶ I̶ d̶on̶'t̶ w̶a̶s̶t̶e̶ y̶o̶u̶r̶ t̶i̶m̶e̶. I̶ p̶r̶o̶b̶a̶b̶l̶y̶ d̶i̶d̶, I̶ a̶m̶ s̶o̶ s̶o̶r̶r̶y̶, I̶ w̶i̶l̶l̶ g̶o̶ j̶u̶m̶p̶ o̶f̶f̶ a̶ b̶r̶i̶d̶g̶e̶
t̶h̶a̶t̶ I̶ d̶o̶n̶'t̶ h̶a̶v̶e̶ t̶o̶ c̶o̶m̶e̶ t̶o̶ y̶o̶u̶r̶ h̶o̶u̶s̶e̶ a̶n̶d̶ b̶u̶r̶n̶ i̶t̶ t̶o̶ t̶h̶e̶ g̶r̶o̶u̶n̶d̶.
that you have a sense of humor!