Table of Contents
Acknowledgments xiii
My Soul 1
Loss 3
My Soul Feels Lean 7
Is Anything Left? 8
You Wonder 10
Goodbye to Summer 12
I Lose Myself, Find My Self 14
Go toward That Which Repels 15
Inner Freedom 16
Leave Them Behind 17
Katy and Theresa 18
Refusal 20
Kenyan Thirst 22
Coveted Growth 23
Helpless 24
Love So Easily Gets Lost 25
The Terrorist 27
The Death of Friendship 28
Rhonda 29
She Feels Old at Twenty-Eight 30
Airport 31
The Screaming 32
Greedy for Too Many Things 34
Saying All the Wrong Things 35
Mistaken Perceptions 36
The Strongest Friendship 37
Wealthy Woman 38
Palm Sunday 40
The Lone Evening Star 41
Blue Jay Heart 42
The Old Cottonwood 43
These Gray Winter Days 44
Azalea Leaves 45
Pinnacles of Winter 47
April Goldfinches 48
One Lone Goose 50
Ninety Years 52
Death Invades My Days 54
Crushing Coincidences 55
My Fear of Losing You 57
Margaret 58
He's Burying His Mother Today 60
On the Death of Sister Flavia 62
Evangelista 64
Grandfather 66
Christina 68
Aileen 70
After the Funeral 72
Grief Has Come to My House 74
Anger 75
You Keep Your Sorrow 76
Uncontrolled Grief 78
Taste the Sadness 79
Falling 80
The Creaks and Cries of a Heart 82
Restoration 85
I Hear Spring Breathing 89
Surprising Surrender 90
Light in the Eyes of the Dying 91
For a Brief Moment 93
New Zealand Rainforest 94
Franklin Gulls 96
New Year's Day 97
Don't Run 99
The Ice Storm 101
Not So Afraid 103
Melody of My Soul 104
A Steady Rain 105
Migrating Pelicans 106
January Moon 107
Butterfly 108
Contemplation 109
Frozen Songs 110
At Night 111
Last Leaf on the Tree 113
On My Way From Mankato to St. Paul 115
Changing the Landscape 116
An Exile Coming Home 117
Bittersweet 118
Easter Joy 119
The Memory of a Hand 121
Self-Doubt 122
Resurrection 124
Memories 125
Gestation 126
Rain 127
Watching Each Other Age 128
Seven Sisters 130
Silent Nudge of Confidence 131
Taking Back Her Life 133
The Best of You 134
Waiting for a Return 136
The Pine Grove 137
Winter Invitation 139
With Each Flying-by Year 140
The Robin in January 141
Watching Rain 142
Blackbirds 144
Easter Watch 145
How Many Loves Now 146
Shabby and Awkward 148
When Winter Wears Long 149
Writing 150
Community 151
Home Free 152
Snake Charmer 153
Uncertainty 154
Live This Day 156
Someday 158
Index of Titles and First Lines 159
